Gusty

At countless points in our lives, we are all walking by ourselves…drawing out the desire in others, probably not purposefully, with our rays of mystery exuding toward their souls.

The wind makes me feel angst. I thought this feeling would be left behind with the onset of legal voting, but not when the gusts are 33 mph. I wonder how I am going to feel resolved on a day like today. If I can get some work completed before going to work, then probably so. I am attempting to train myself to never put my hands up to my face. Life is healthier that way and skin clearer. I need to get out of college. I think that and then at the same time, or perhaps a slight second after, I decide I am scared to get out of this cool comfort hole I’ve dug and decorated over the past three years. “Abilene, Abilene, prettiest town I ever did see, the girls aren’t even mean in Abilene.” This morning I found myself wondering why a man decided to write that lyric about this place. Maybe my senior year will be themed as the art of climbing out of the hole gracefully with thankfulness and stars in my eyes for what’s next. Whatever the case, this summer will bring positive change in me and that is a great start.

thought collage

creative conflictions
smell of desert rain

where does it all come from
ella, frank,
why do we let ourselves fall through them?

those friends, those singers, their songs
why do they get to choose how and when?
the influence is enticing.
the influence is an excuse.

but.. man..

we should get to choose
we know the real issues
we understand the importance of the differences
why, then, allow them to conflict the process with their
premature notions.

being.

being.

be be be be

being.

focus. slow down. listen for understanding
from God
wait for the only good advice
ignore the rest
they are impatient in their wait
so they make my wait speed up

not anymore.
my instincts best bring something better than
if i didn't listen.

where am i going to make it better?
it the baptismal pool?
look here mam

who0o0o0o0o0 listens anyway?
kevin james
funny
fun fun funn-E
to me

kbye the end